The 3rd of February marked my one year anniversary of being in the 12 Step Programme Overeaters Anonymous. One the 1st of February 2025 I had a breakdown . I really hated myself and couldn't see a way out. On the 3rd of February I handed it over and within 2 minutes I was on a virtual Overeaters Anonymous Zoom meeting that changed my life .
Read moreIf there is one person on this earth who I feel is my therapist without actually being my therapist (really, I feel like I owe him a lot of money, but I suppose buying the albums and concert tickets counts in some ways) it would be Dan Reynolds, singer of Imagine Dragons.
Read more4 weeks ago I opened up to my manager and a couple of colleagues about my food addiction.
Read moreHello. I'm Lauren and I'm a compulsive over-eater.
Read moreFor the last 3 weeks I've joined 24 Zoom meetings. I've talked on some of them, shied away on others, and until today kept my camera off.
Read moreWhen I called my blog ‘In This Skin’ it was not only because of the Jessica Simpson song but also because this is a big focus in my life at the moment.
Read moreWhen the word addiction is mentioned I think thoughts immediately go to drugs, then alcohol, nicotine, gambling, caffeine or sugar. I’ve always had an issue with food. It was only this year I was able to recognise, with the help of my boyfriend, that I have a food addiction. For years I’ve used food as both comfort and also as a form of harm. If I’m feeling stres…
Read moreSitting in that waiting room again. Watching the red dotted words going along that screen, waiting for my name to beep onto it. If you watch that screen for a while it makes you so dizzy. Your eyes go funny, and it's hard to focus, so best not to do that when you are soon to walk through that corridor to the doctors room. My name pops up. Not a long wait. Have …
Read moreFor a while now I haven't recognised myself at all. Looking in the mirror I didn't look like me. At times I would see a hint of me, I would really make an effort with how I dressed, doing my hair and doing my make up but sometimes it felt odd. Although I was trying to look like me, the body I was dressing wasn't mine. It all felt a bit fake, and I would…
Read moreFor a while I have been unhappy with my body. Looking in the mirror feeling disgusted and disappointed with myself. Although I would try and dress in clothes that suited me and covered those problem areas, I could still see them, and I was fully aware that I was hiding them. I began to feel really ashamed of myself and got fed up with wondering if I needed a size 1…
Read moreSo tomorrow is the day. The day a lot of us have been looking forward to, have been anxious about, have been planning, for months. I've had various wobbles about meeting people, what people will think of me, whether or not people will like me, whether or not I will like the people I've followed and grown to really like for 2 years, and of course, my ou…
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